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For the first time in months I saw a movie, it bored me, and I came home to terrible news.  I had heard in the theatre that ROBIN WILLIAMS died.  I thought that was sad. 
Tomorrow I go south to try and pick up the pieces of her life.  She was one of my best friends and I was always in love with her. 

I am so sorry for your loss.  Prayers lifted for you and your family.

Sending you warm hugs, BrotherAHD  :bluesad:

I am so sorry to hear this. Prayers for her, you and your family, my friend.

I am so sorry for your loss.  Our thoughts are with you and your family.

Oh my god how terrible.  So sorry for your loss, AllHallows, wishing you all the best.

Same here, Dude. Stay strong.

Sorry to hear about this.  My grandmother died suddenly (in an airport) when I was about 12 years old.  One of my best friends died suddenly (on Christmas Day) when I was about 24.  It hits hard and seems so senseless.  Stay strong.

Very sad, my deepest condolences to you and the rest of her family.

That's horrible.  All of our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Keep your chin up AHD. All the best to you.

sorry to hear

You have my condolences and sympathy.  The initial shock will be the hardest part, followed by an even deeper understanding of your friendship and appreciation of your time together.

Very sorry to hear.  Please try to be as upbeat as possible in these very tough times.  Best wishes.

Terrible news. My sympathies to you and the family. 

How awful. I hope the many good memories it sounds like you have of her are some comfort during this sad time.

I am home briefly due to the kindness of one of my sister in law's friends.  She had so many friends, I'm having a hard time keeping all the names straight (I only knew a fraction of them).  I am going back south shortly, but stopped in here and was touched to see all of the kind remarks.  I have hopefully successfully placed two horses, two dogs, and possibly three cats with three more to go (though I'm still responsible until that happens for the six in the house).  There are also numerous "feral" cats on her property.  Yes, I've been advised about "termites" coming out of the woodwork.  And they are.  I learned again that people can be mercenary and callous.  I have more questions than answers - and not the usual questions (those too) - but stuff like... Is there a will???  Is there a bank vault?  How many mutual funds are there and who are they with and who might be the beneficiaries.   :bluesad:  I don't have time to be sad.  I have a lot of work to do. 

What can I say but what everyone else has said. Stay strong!

You have all been kind.  It's no wonder to me why I love this place. 

My brother's wife, my friend most of my life...  I stayed home tonight on the advice of one of my beloved sister's friends.  Tomorrow I stay at the farm.  I miss her so much.  The loss of this beloved beautiful lady is devastating.  I have been through many long terrible deaths, but none so sudden.  I thought I knew "everything".  Now it has hit me.  I know zero.  She is gone and  I love her.   

Once again, hugs and be strong, BrotherAHD: we're here for you.

My heart goes out to you, my friend.
Shed your tears freely and without regret; there is no shame in grief that is rooted in love.

Nicely said, Indy. Nicely said.

So sorry for your loss.  It's wonderful of you to take on these responsibilities for her.  You're an amazing man and I'm sure you'll get it all worked out.  Like Trevor said - we're here for you!

f**k,John.
I'm so sorry-dam-call me- 269-299-2047.

That is indeed terrible. My condolences to you and your family.

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I'm very sorry for your loss.  I'm hoping that things are going better.  Prayers and hoping for the best. 

Im sorry for your loss  :bluesad:

Well, AHD...  If there is a will, and if you are the executor, you can always start practicing your best Gene Wilder:   YOU GET NOTHING!  YOU LOSE!!

(sorry...  every time I see your avatar I remember that remarkable rant.)

As your badmovies fellows, wemourn your loss.  I wish you peace and rest and will keep you in my prayers.

Down to one cat in the house, when he's caught and placed, then I step away.  Three were removed today, one with the assistance of a shelter, though that's not where she went (that was the worst catch yet!!) and all are receiving medical attention, proper care, and are placed.  One is very important and old, but will be tracked for his life as necessary.  I could not take him, but can pay for him to "Cat City" in a wonderful shelter from my own inheritance. 
There's no will yet.  Some friends came in and cleaned just to make it more tolerable.  My sister had many wonderful friends.  

My poor beloved friend, my brother's wife and my sister,  was apparently on many medications, more than even I was aware of... I think Polypharmacy stopped her heart.   :bluesad:  
What do I know?   :question:  Now, I'm almost at the surface and will never spend a night again in that miserable stinky house. 

Shame.  Just seeing this now. 

Sorry to hear, sir.   :bluesad:

All of the cats are placed.  My friend only had two horses and two dogs, but lots of cats.  The doors are locked and I can take a step back.  Without a will, I have no right to be on someone's property.  I am happy that all of her animals are placed and safe.  The easy part is chapter two.  I have my brother's ashes and ashes of 2 cats and 3 dogs and they both wanted all these ashes buried with their first horses at the horse farm; I have only to pick up her ashes.  And I will ensure their wish happens. 

My deepest condolences to you and the rest of her family.

yeah very sorry to hear that...only just seen the thread

     AHD- Been AFK for a while, really sorry to hear this . Call if you need.

(254) 205-4860.

iM SO BUSY BEING STUPID ABOUT isis s**t i FORGOT WHAT REALLY MATTERS-AND THATS MY FREIND.
i AM SO SORRY hALLOWS-iM A DICK.
i LOVE YA-Im a dick. Dam.

AHD don't know no "AFK".  Nonetheless I thank thee. 

Everything's fine and we're cool.  I haven't looked at any threads other than this one and the music for the last two weeks.  You're not "a dick".  You're a dope. 
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Having lost my brother David, Gayle devoted even more time and energy to animal care.  I have successfully placed horses Willie and Nelson, dogs Sasha (newfoundland) and Samantha (beagle) and cats sweet Billy, three legged Lucky, beautiful Scarlett, superfat Simon the honeybunch, where's Waldo (aka Ballboy) and most importantly Atticus.

Umm, do I dare ask why Where's Waldo is nicknamed Ballboy?

Your sister in law had a wonderful sense of humor as represented by the animal names.

Stay strong and focus on the things about her that made you smile and laugh, good sir.

Im sober today,John,-aint locked the cap key.
Ya need to call me.

Waldo was so named because he was a "where's that cat?" kind of cat; it was always "Where's Waldo?".  It was a while before I caught a glimpse of him.  The nickname "Ballboy" was given Waldo by my BROTHER, who's gone since 2010.  Skinny grey tabby Waldo, who must be about six,  would turn around and walk away with his tail in air displaying major junk.  Ballboy.  Unfixed, he certainly sprayed in their house.   :bluesad:   :buggedout:

That's what I thought was the reason for the name, but, you know me, I have a dirty mind.

It's Bollocks The Cat! Ooh, now I have a name for my cat if I get one.

So sorry to learn about your loss. Can't believe I didn't notice this until now.

I have since learned that "AFK" is "away from keyboard".   I did not know the acronym.  Thanks again for your kindness.   

Hope all is well, Brother AHD.  :smile:

I'm sorry. I know what it feels like to lose someone close to you. It leaves a hole in your heart that can never fill.

So sorry to hear about your sad loss.  Stay strong.

Thank you for your kind words. 

It's nice to see you around Silverlady.   Thanks for your remarks. 

My sister (in law) was always one of my best friends.  I miss my angel everyday. 

Hope you're doing better and that all is well, Brother AHD.   :smile:

My brother shot himself in Feburary,Hallows. He was the ONLy brother I was close too. I alternate between crying and acting like it aint happened.
I really dont know how to feel-I am really not trying to feel anything.
My wife-my Ma-,my brother. Why the f**k am I here? Thats what really bugs me. :question:

I remember what happened with your brother.  And maybe you're here because Tiana needs you. 

As for "why"?  Who knows?  I used to say to my sister: "Oh, Gayle, you'll bury me...!"   :bluesad:

John-man-you know I love you. I aint gonna say more because-it dont f**kin matter.
I love ya,man,and you know this.

You me-you-can talk s**t all day-bUT-when the do die-oh my god-
My brother Richie was younger than me-he shot his girlfreind and commited suicide. THIS IS BAD.It hurts-it hurts.IT f**kING HURTS.

I know that must hurt terribly.  We talked then but I didn't know what to say to you.  Only, LOVE, and STRENGTH.  That's what I lean on. 
And I miss my dear friend, my good girl Gayle.  She died young and did not take her own life, but she might have neglected her health... or, depended on too many medications to keep her healthy or feeling well...  I do see that it is DRUGS (again - maybe here too) that killed her.   I do know she had had a "silent heart attack" and a second that led to the accident.  She might have been dead before her vehicle made impact, and she was not injured in the accident.  She was my dear sweetheart. 

Thinking about my dear friend, I loved her so much.  That's my brother with her.  I loved him too, very much.  Now I understand their life is over. 

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Today I went to a memorial at the Episcopal church for my friend Robert Thoman.  He was an intelligent, witty person who had an injury and suddenly discovered he was terminal.  He declined quickly, and I am glad that he enjoyed his new home and was well and up and about for a long time when he must have been in fact ill...
Last night I went to a wedding reception at Liberty State Park, with a view of the Statue and the Freedom Tower??  It was beautiful...  
God Bless America!!!  

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I finally did this today.  It was planned for two weeks ago, the one year anniversary, but we had terrible rain storms and I postponed. 

I buried my brother and sister's ashes together along a treeline with Gayle's statue of St. Francis over them.  They are now with their beloved horses, both buried there long ago.  Then per her family's request, the several cat and dog ashes were deposited separately, between the two horses.  It is a beautiful property and their final resting place is just how I pictured it.  In a way, I guess I did not want to give up their ashes, but didn't realize it until I'd done it.  I can be very silly and sentimental. 

Silly and Sentimental? No. You loved them. That's as it should be. Be at peace.

I'm sorry for your loss  :bluesad:

Not silly.  You loved them. 

Thanks for your kind remarks.  I'm glad, and sad. 

That's okay, you wrote something last year.  Gayle is gone over a year and my brother 5 and a half.  You are a kind man. 

You are wrong I am indeed silly, but you are right.  I love them. 

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Here's me with my angel about 3 years ago.  We're at the Popcorn Park Zoo and Shelter where she volunteered. 

Nice to finally see you after all this time, Brother AHD  :thumbup: :smile:

I've posted pictures of myself at least a few times.  I just found that image yesterday!   :smile:

{{{AHD}}}  you are a good man and i'm sorry i didn't see this thread last year. my sympathies.. know you are loved.

You're very kind and sweet.  Thanks! 

I hope that time has brought you healing and peace, my friend.

This was the first time I posted a pic of me...the pic is now gone... :

 

Here's the only other time I posted a pic of me that I found: 

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My BIG little piece of Gayle... my little BIG piece of Gayle...

That is a very happy cat.  Lots of love there.

My brother was still alive when I took this cat.  He said to his wife: "John needs that cat as much as that cat needs John."  His wife told me that story many times.  I had asked Gayle to take her boy back to the farm if I were to drop dead... daed... 
:bouncegiggle: :bluesad: 
I often joked with her about that cat whom she named, though I have my own diminutive for him.  Of course she said yes... I do not recall ever talking with her about their ashes or her animals yet somehow I knew what to do. 

she's adorable! and she reaches out to grad your hand and MAKE you pet her, i'll bet, just like my strangely enough does! :)

I think you mean my cat.  HE is adorable. 

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DAVID, ANNIE, GAYLE, JOHN (me)... probably Spring 1973...

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DAVID, GAYLE, EDDIE... probably Christmas 1973... or Christmas 1974...

I haven't popped in here lately, but I hope you're doing well sir. 

I've lost so many, I don't have a second look at death.  I'm only 31.

But, I feel for you.  Your loss.  It's always sad. 

You're sweet, Happy. 
I'm much older, but by 31 my father was dead... uhm, 30!!  He's gone a long time.  I turned 31 at the end of the year my father died, but by then he was gone nearly 8 months.  I always looked up to my brother, but, I guess, I loved his wife even more than I loved him.  She was beautiful and sweet, always smiling, finding humor, and she loved chocolate, Horror movies and books, and she loved ALL animals.  I get weepy about her... like tonight.   :smile:

http://youtu.be/QqH7ZzFRKZ0 (http://youtu.be/QqH7ZzFRKZ0) 
ROBIN WILLIAMS died the same day as my angel.  I owed it to my brother to take care of her. 

One of the most difficult parts of losing someone you love is society's expectation that feeling that loss should be temporary and heal according to some socially-acceptable timetable. Grief doesn't come with an expiration date, and can take up long-residence in the heart until it comes to live there, no longer a guest but an occupant casting a long shadow, turning high noon to dusk. The reaction to loss is as personal as a fingerprint, and pain as unique as a snowflake. Sadness can be a comfortable place to dwell, or visit, and as consuming as being in love, though less sustaining: it slowly eats the soul to pieces. Mourning can be life-saving, but if there comes a moment a person realizes he has grown too comfortable with sorrow, like the prisoner in his cell at Chillon, maybe that's the point to start looking for a way back, though until then, grief can stay the past, in a hollow fashion, and be quite a seductive force. How a person chooses to keep the flame of memory burning is a highly personal matter.

Peace to all in what life will send your way.

Today used to be a special day at Dave and Gayle's house; they would have her cousins and their mother, her aunt, would have a turkey with all the trimmings.  Gayle's cousin told me the last time, not too long ago, they saw the cats up on the counter gnawing at the bird...

When our brother-in-law saw this photo he proclaimed: "You were a babe!"  I teased Gayle for the next few years with: "You were a babe... but now you're a Cat Lady..."  

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My big little piece of Gayle... my little Big piece of Gayle...
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Why tonight?  It's so cold here in NJ that I can't help thinking about all the cats out in the bitter cold.   Watching the cat crossing the highway and inexplicably making it and crossing back and then trying again...   :question:  Tears are running down my face.  Cat brain.  God help us save all the little lives.  And I can't help but miss her. 

Today is two years.  
My best friend died suddenly two years ago.  
I've recovered.  We all must go on.  

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My BIG little piece of Gayle... my little BIG piece of Gayle...


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Well, s**t, I'm totally late to this thread.

Hey, Hallow, I'm am REAL sorry to hear about your sister.  I know it's not quite the same, but back in '95 a friend of mine passed away, a young lady whom I was very fond of.  Among other things, she was the only girl who'd ever told me that if she hadn't been dating Selim (her boyfriend) that I'd be the type man she'd want to go out with.  Even though we'd talked and knew each other for over two years, I just found out about a month before she passed away that she'd been born with a heart condition. Twenty years later I still think about her and miss her.

One of the few good things about all the crap I'd been through recently is that my sister has stood by my side and we've become closer than we ever have been.  I couldn't imagine losing her, so the pain you're going through most be horrible.  I offer my deepest sympathies.  

(hugs)

I revived this thread because it was the two year anniversary this past Thursday.  Thanks for your kind words. 

I won't lie to you, I honestly didn't notice the date.

But, considering I wasn't here when the thread was originally posted everything I said still stands.  I know anniversaries can suck, so I hope you're hanging up okay.

Thanks for your kind words. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN GOOD GIRL GAYLE !!!

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Two things Bro. Ya look like a friend of mine, and the Peacock just looks so...right in that pic. Stay cool, dude.

I agree with you about the peacock.  We bought popcorn to feed the exotic birds in the shelter.  Only in the context of a shelter did I like a zoo, where Gayle volunteered.  I saw lions there.  I hope your friend I look like is cool. 

Tomorrow is the 4th anniversary of Gayle's death.  I went to Mass this morning and lit a candle. 

I have her cat still here at my feet.

It's hard for me to post in a thread to a passed loved one. I know how it is. I can't talk about Tara no more.
I don't even believe in God, but I pray sometimes anyway-I will pray for your sister.

Still a terrible loss, ahd. I feel bad for you every year when this sad date comes around.

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My BIG little piece of Gayle... my little BIG piece of Gayle...

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Sorry for your loss.   :bluesad:

Thanks, Sven.  It was four years ago. 

I also post other places about lots of things.  I don't expect too many notice, but I go back.  As long as there is this forum I'll revive this thread.  

About 24 hours ago Gayle's cousin, Karen, died.  If it weren't for Karen, Gayle's death would have been a lot harder.  Funeral mass Saturday, viewing Friday.  I am glad I was able to tell her I love her. 

Sending you warm hugs, Brother AHD.

Sorry to hear this, my friend.

I lost a long time friend this month, I feel your pain.

i'm so sorry john... i'm glad you could do that too. i wish i could hug you for real right now.... :bluesad:

10 years ago today the one cat I was able to hold onto up to that time died after being with me most of 16 years. 

For my Babe: 
The United States Of America - Cloud Song (1969) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Yqr4UK41GM#) 

{{{{john}}}} :bluesad:

Today is the fifth anniversary of Gayle's death.  I went to mass this morning. 

I hope you'll try to think of this cruel anniversary as marking one year closer til you meet again, John.

I hope you adopted a new cat companion or two to hold onto.

 
Not cruel; just sad.  I think I admire loyalty most.  I don't expect anything from life, except opportunity. 


Years ago my cat came from Gayle, and was named by her.  No more cats at this time; my cat does not care for cats or dogs.  Though from a house of many cats and dogs, and living here with two dogs then one, I have had bad experiences trying to reintroduce him.  Stray cats are fed here, and if around long enough, introductions don't bode well.  I think my cat is too old and spoiled now.  

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My BIG little piece of Gayle... my little BIG piece of Gayle...

she's a cutie from what i can see!  :cheers:

^ It's a "he", I've posted that before in this thread, and most importantly, he is very ill. 

 :bluesad:  i'm so sorry...

It's okay, thank you.  We are on bought time, a crap shoot, and hope.  For the first time in his 10.5 year life, he slept next to me last night. 

Man, that's bummed.  :bluesad:

He's still with us.  He slept beside me again last night.  I haven't a clue or 2 nickels to rub together.  I hope.   :thumbup:

He's laying on the chair next to mine, purring.  It's been a month and he's much better.  My Christmas present.   :smile:

It's been six weeks since my cat's transfusion.  I suspect the steroid keeps him going, the only med he gets now.  He might have slowed down the last few days.  I have great hope to keep him with me.  I hope that the universe will smile on me. 

i hope so too, john.  :cheers:

Today I researched the last option that is a terrible choice.  I cannot abide suffering.  My cat has slid back, weaker than before.  I keep my feelings to myself, except I share them with this forum.  It's like a journal.  I am surprised by the depth of my feelings.  I behave like a weepy baby.  I thought I was stronger.  I guess I can take anything, and acceptance is necessary.  No matter how hard life can be, it can always be harder.  I haven't been this wrecked since Gayle died. 

I cried like a baby when my dog Ted died. It's good to cry.

I admit tears to me are suspect.  I believe in strength and control.  Crying is easy, particularly for people like me.  I have been well trained and when my brother was dying, my "rule" with Gayle was:  "No tears."  But, I was there through the worst of that experience, and I was there and held her twice in the midst of her tears.  My best friend could do no wrong and thinking about her I get that heartache belly lurch.  It's like being a body rolling in the surf, powerless.  It's a crashing wave.  Here it comes.

Thanks my friend. 

i wish we could do more to help you john..

You do have a kind inclination.  My cat is still with us, and a little better today than yesterday, more active, and eating.  He even peed!  It's funny the things that can make one glad.  The earthquake is in my gut because I'm writing this.  I've gotten better hold of myself, and glad I have stalled on making a final decision.  He slept beside me again last night and was still there when I woke up 5 hours later.  I used to tease Gayle that "that cat is going back to the farm" (meaning her property).  I never imagined I could get close to a cat after I lost my girl 10.5 years ago.  I know his importance is symbolic.  I also just love him.  Thanks. 

I know how close you can get to a cat. May he surprise you and get better and may you have many happy memories of him to think back on. If you feel the need to cry AHD, just let it happen. Don't worry about losing control once in a while.

Believe you me, I can indulge myself and have, including with tears.  I look askance at tears; it's personal... I gave up caring what anybody thinks of me long ago.  I believe in control.  Too much blubbering on TV and around me.  Tears have been used to manipulate.  Now that I would be afraid anyone would accuse me of. 

I don't cry alot either. I didn't cry about my brother or father until long after the fact.
But when I do, I howl like a baby. And it really helps to let all that go.

Whoever said cats have nine lives?   Jumps on me late in the night, lays next to me, leaves.  He's different and the same.  I've been calling him "my big little skinny bones". 

Maybe Barri sent encouraging thoughts my way;  for the moment, I am under the shadow of a smile.  I thank her. 

always. even when i'm not real happy with you. friends do that.  :cheers:

My boy is on my desk in front of this monitor, making it difficult to type as his tail and back paw are on the keyboard.   :thumbup:

 :smile: :cheers:

Yesterday was the 6th anniversary of Gayle's death. 

It took him a year and a half plus, but my boy died today. 

Aww...  :bluesad: Courage. Loss of a pet is no small thing.

Did I relearn that lesson today!  What I wrote a year and a half ago was still true. 
I talked with my younger sister and laughed... that helped a lot.  I am very blessed to have her.
Living hurts, acceptance helps.  I thought of my brother who chose long ago not to live, merely to survive.  He survives still.  If you live in fear of hurt you will never know joy. 
We can hope. 

I am very sorry.  :bluesad:

Sending hugs, AHD

So sorry to hear that.  It's so hard to lose a dear companion. 

Thank you all my friends.  Though he'd been low for about a week, most of his life he was always...there.  I look for him wherever he would have been.  Sometimes I see him in the corner of my eye.  What is it about cats?  I am surprised at how much I loved that cat. 

7 years ago today...