I can't really see a doctor or therapist. No money. I'd have money if I wasn't paying all the bills. The little bit I have left after bills don't even cover an office visit to a doctor. And I have no friends to turn to. I'm just a sad depressed little man and I don't have anyone to turn to.
Most cities have low-priced clinics you can visit. I visited one in Vegas when I had no money or insurance to get a prescription for antidepressants. I am not a doctor and I'm not diagnosing you as suffering from depression, but your story does somewhat remind me of my own.
I've been depressed. Problem is, it'd depend on what anti-depressants I get prescribed. I've gone through a pill addiction. Alcohol addiction. Cocaine, etc.
I found that when it comes to women, being too "nice" wasn't the way to go. Women I learned in most cases seemed to think of that as me sucking up trying to get close to them and they were probably right at that time. Now I'd be far more likely to joke and kid around with a woman and I found once I started kidding around and teasing, the women seemed to take to me better because I was engaging them in conversation and not merely looking to flatter, suck-up and get with them and just seeming like someone desperately seeking attention. By not caring whether they would go for me or not and just kidding around, it tended to perk their interest a lot more. Well that's my experience anyways.
As to your more immediate concern, I think Rev's advice is top notch. I'm sure others out there are going through the same or have been through the same. Important to know you're not alone. I had a friend who found religion helped him quit smoking....that might be even be another option to consider...at least starting to talk to someone, especially someone with training to help you.
I can flirt to a degree. But it's now at the point where I even start talking to women and they just point and laugh in my face. So, eh. I'm over it.