Yeah, well, it kinda sounds like she sucks too.
Circus, I like you. I really do. Sometimes these things have to be said. I've been obsessed with girls like what you're experiencing right now. There is no redemption in this situaion, only disappointment and/or shame. The sooner you realize this the sooner you will stop obsessing. It must be done, Circus.
However, if this is simply a moment of drunken gushing, then gush away, my friend. Nothing wrong with that.