Why does this always come back into my head?
I hate f**king jail. Nothing real evil happened to me in jail. I din't get beat up or f**ked in the ass when I was in jail.
But it really-REAALY sucked. And I went there a LOT. I believe I even went there a couple times as a member of this board!
I never commited a felony- I got drunk alot- did dumb s**t in public. Longest I ever did was 45 days-and that was because I broke probation 3 time for drinking when I was told by the laws I can't. I was like-"what"? So I got arrested again and again.
Any way...ever been to jail?
I got arrested one time, for trespassing, and spent a total of two hours in a cell. That was enough.
(FWIW, I wasn't really trespassing; I had permission to be on the property but the old caretaker had died and the new one didn't know me. One phone call cleared things up.)
They didn't call it a jail, or a prison.
Quote from: Svengoolie 3 on July 18, 2019, 10:57:06 PM
They didn't call it a jail, or a prison.
So what did they call it? A funny farm? Were you in jail or a nut house? There is a difference. I been in both.
You go to jail if yer drunk driving or get in a barfight.
You go to the fruit factory when your lying in your driveway screaming at the sky.
They called it a "group home". There was a trend called "institutionalization" where a slick talking psychologist with a degree targets a troubled teen and convinces his family he needs to be institutionalized even if he has no criminal record.
Those places tended to be poorly supervised and any butcher with a psychology degree could use wnagtwever form of mental and psychological torture he wanted to break kids. Dehumanization, degradation, debasement, demeaning, etc. Deliberate attacks on a kids ability to believe in himself, destroy his ego, crush his estemm then turn him into little Mr.
Roboto.
They were half successful, they fubared me in gems on self confidence and alsommy abiltyt o tolerate being arbitrarily ordered around. I never became heir little mr. Roboto, I have severe ODD to this day and always will. They also forced us into a christian regime, prayer, study, etc. Illegal? Sure! What we're we going to do? Leave? Sure with locked doors
What they did was basically non sexual rape. Tape isn't really about sex, itcs about power, dominance, violating someone. That's what they did.
I came out full of hate and bitterness. In time I learned to stop hating myself for not being able to stop what they did to me, I still hate "the system" for what it did to me tho.
I was there for a year. Never got over it, never will. A year of carefully crafter psychological destruction and calculated brutality damaged me beyond repair. Some people can royally xxxxed up by one severe traumatic incident. I had a year of constant assault on my mind, ego, identity, etc.
I'm sure some people here will fling their excrrement at me here. Whoop whoop.
Not from me. I been in nut houses. More than once. I been in rehabs too. And Jail. Thyr'e all interesting in their own f**ked up ways. But it NEVER changed who I was.
And I ALWAYS kept my sense of humor no matter where I was. Because I truly think everything is f**king stupid. And I laugh before I fight.
And I am truly grateful to be alive right now, when most of my family and freinds are dead.
Quote from: RCMerchant on July 19, 2019, 12:39:29 AM
Not from me. I been in nut houses. More than once. I been in rehabs too. And Jail. Thyr'e all interesting in their own f**ked up ways. But it NEVER changed who I was.
And I ALWAYS kept my sense of humor no matter where I was. Because I truly think everything is f**king stupid. And I laugh before I fight.
Didn't think
YOU would, RC. I was talking about a couple other people. One who has throw some at you.
Quote from: Svengoolie 3 on July 19, 2019, 12:48:16 AM
Quote from: RCMerchant on July 19, 2019, 12:39:29 AM
Not from me. I been in nut houses. More than once. I been in rehabs too. And Jail. Thyr'e all interesting in their own f**ked up ways. But it NEVER changed who I was.
And I ALWAYS kept my sense of humor no matter where I was. Because I truly think everything is f**king stupid. And I laugh before I fight.
Didn't think YOU would, RC. I was talking about a couple other people. One who has throw some at you.
No clue. I have no real problem with anybody one the board- mostly for the simple fact that this is a film board on the internet. Nobody pulled a gun on me. Or punched me in the head! If that happens- yeah- I'll chase them down Pelham Parkway with a knife!
But not today...dam...why? s**t, man! I just wanna talk about monsters!
But I AM the one who brought up the subject-arn't I?
I reckon I'm just wanting to exorcise demons in my own heart. Because I DO hate jail and I hate f**king every cop in this town.
Quote from: RCMerchant on July 19, 2019, 12:55:59 AM
Quote from: Svengoolie 3 on July 19, 2019, 12:48:16 AM
Quote from: RCMerchant on July 19, 2019, 12:39:29 AM
Not from me. I been in nut houses. More than once. I been in rehabs too. And Jail. Thyr'e all interesting in their own f**ked up ways. But it NEVER changed who I was.
And I ALWAYS kept my sense of humor no matter where I was. Because I truly think everything is f**king stupid. And I laugh before I fight.
Didn't think YOU would, RC. I was talking about a couple other people. One who has throw some at you.
No clue. I have no real problem with anybody one the board- mostly for the simple fact that this is a film board on the internet. Nobody pulled a gun on me. Or punched me in the head! If that happens- yeah- I'll chase them down Pelham Parkway with a knife!
But not today...dam...why? s**t, man! I just wanna talk about monsters!
But I AM the one who brought up the subject-arn't I?
I reckon I'm just wanting to exorcise demons in my own heart.
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Plus I did stupid s**t and get put in the pokey just because I'm a crazy a***ole.
Ah - I still hate cops.
Quote from: RCMerchant on July 19, 2019, 01:16:07 AM
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Plus I did stupid s**t and get put in the pokey just because I'm a crazy a***ole.
Ah - I still hate cops.
I don't feel this way. There are bad cops, yes. There are cops I wouldn't blame the victims or the relatives of their victims for shooting. There are cops who should be taken out, but a lot are decent people. I've seen damn good ones. I saw a video of one who pushed a man out of they or a car trying to hit them both and get his legs crushed on a concrete divider for saving a stranger. I've seen ones jump into rivers to rescued people from cars that had gone into them. I've seen them help my hysterical and bloody next door neighbor the night I called hem for her because someone had tried to murder her and left her injured and terrified.
Yeah there are a lotta Aholes, bullies, criminals, psychopaths, etc with badges but there are a lot of decent ones too.
Like Indy, I spent a few hours in a holding cell in jail (scofflaw on a ticket) and I made sure I never went back.
Sven- I know there are good cops. I don't have a problem with most of them. But- like most of the human race- I am prejudiced against a certain group of people. Cops happen to be the one on my brain that I chose, right or wrong-wrong of course. But I can't help it-it's hard wired into my brain- I see a badge, I think 'Mother f**ker'. :hatred:
:bluesad:
How are you towards Military Police? I speant a year working as one of those on an Airforce base. (I didn't get a badge though because technically I wasn't an MP. I just did all the stuff that MPs do, showed up for MP rolecall, and worked an MP job with other MPs.)
I never been in the Military- so yeah. I reckon they're ok!
Veterans here know my jail story, when I was detained for most of New Year's 2005 over a misunderstanding in Dublin, where I went after falling out in Austin, Texas. I was in a group led by a guy who thought he was jimmying the window of his friend's house to get us in before he came home to meet us, but his friend had moved out and the window got broken by his efforts, which a nosy neighbor saw and....the police had an admirably quick response time. We weren't put in a cell, more of a waiting area where we were made to leave behind our purses and the contents of our pockets and stay until things got sorted out. I paid the owner of the flat for the window's replacement and no charges were filed. Closest I've come to jail.
Now I just hope they never find those missing drifters buried at the abandoned railroad station....
^ Gee golly whilikers! Strawberry Shortcake got busted! :bouncegiggle:
Quote from: RCMerchant on October 10, 2019, 06:35:45 PM
^ Gee golly whilikers! Strawberry Shortcake got busted! :bouncegiggle:
HA! Made me laugh at the wrong moment, RC.
Quote from: ER on October 10, 2019, 06:57:14 PM
Quote from: RCMerchant on October 10, 2019, 06:35:45 PM
^ Gee golly whilikers! Strawberry Shortcake got busted! :bouncegiggle:
HA! Made me laugh at the wrong moment, RC.
Did you pee while carrying a cake or something. Because that would suck!
That would be worse than passing gas at a wedding.
Quote from: ER on October 10, 2019, 07:02:36 PM
That would be worse than passing gas at a wedding.
I wore a Charlie Manson shirt and was drunk at a hearing before a judge. On a charge of breaking probation for punching a cop. I did 45 days for that. Cop beat my ass. I was in my own yard not hurting a soul. f**k cops.
I knew I was gonna go to jail if I did it. I did it anyway. I don't give a f**k about jail. It don't scare me back then.That will get you killed or f**ked in the ass.
NOW- nah I'm to old for jail. But being old in jail is good. It teachs you to chill the f**k out. As long as you ain't a child molester. Them a***oles get beat hard. Even jailbirds got morals, believe it or not.
It teaches you to keep your mouth shut and get along with folks.
Quote from: RCMerchant on October 10, 2019, 07:08:33 PM
Quote from: ER on October 10, 2019, 07:02:36 PM
That would be worse than passing gas at a wedding.
I wore a Charlie Manson shirt and was drunk at a hearing before a judge. On a charge of breaking probation for punching a cop. I did 45 days for that. Cop beat my ass. I was in my own yard not hurting a soul. f**k cops.
Reminds me of my cousin's husband, Darrell, heck of a nice guy.
He was out cruising with his friends when he was seventeen going out somewhere and they stopped in a bank parking lot to see if the other car full of friends they got ahead of was going to catch up, and a cop pulled in and got rude and loud at them for being in a bank parking lot when the bank was closed, and I think some mouth running went on from inside the car too, but long story short, the cop called for backup and Darrell and the others with him got dragged out and thrown against the side of the police car with their head pushed down against the vehicle and at one point Darrell lost it and whipped around and punched the cop in the face hard enough to break bones in his own hand, and guns got pulled and it was bad.
His dad got him a good enough lawyer to get him off with probation because the judge agreed the police were using excessive force and had no reason to detain them under the circumstances. He could have gotten shot or gotten jail time but he got lucky and never got in trouble again after that.
I had 4 cops pull a gun on me when my brother in law Leroy shot some sorry sack of s**t one night. I had nothing to do with it. Scared the f**k out of my kids.
He wasn't at my house- he just ran and hid in my shed after he did it- I told him to f**king keep moving, because this is the first place they are gonna look for your sorry ass. Start running, mother f**ker. After that the cops kicked in my door and slammed me into the floor. My kids were freaking out.
My first ex-wifes brother.
https://www.heraldpalladium.com/localnews/wons-convicted-of-murder/article_a21f3b0f-d2eb-51b0-b782-3ac1b300a7db.html (https://www.heraldpalladium.com/localnews/wons-convicted-of-murder/article_a21f3b0f-d2eb-51b0-b782-3ac1b300a7db.html)
Jail itself is more boring then scary. Your just hanging out with a bunch of smelly a***oles who, if they get in your face, you tell them to f**k off and they do. They ain't scary. There a***oles. If some shmuck tells you he's gonna ass f**k you in the middle of the night, you tell that f**ker you will stick a pencil in his ear before he even wakes up. So back the f**k up.. I'm only 5'2". NOBODY ever f**ked with me in jail. Most of the time I kept my mouth shut and just played cards. If you mind your own business in jail, nobody even pays you no mind. If your a loudmouth, your ass will get beat or f**ked. If your quite and get evil the first time someone gets in your face, you ok. I was quite and evil. I choked some Mexican guy who was f**king with me. I put him in a neck hold. He puked when I let him go. I gained cred. Nobody f**ked with me. "Haystack got heart!"
They called me Haystack because I had long blonde hair and never combed it. It was a mess.
I swear to God, if there is one, I am talking truth. If I ever go back to jail, I will kill myself. Because I'm too old to deal with that s**t. Or If I go to jail- I will kill a dumb f**ker.
But I don't plan on doing anything that will put me back there, so I reckon I'm ok! :thumbup:
Never been arrested. Did a lot of stupid things over the years. Just been fortunate enough to not get caught.
Was stopped once by a cop while leaving the bar, totally drunk off my ass. Cop could've been a dick about it but after a short exchange just got me home to sleep it off.
It's all good. I have Tiana, I own a house, I have a grandson, and I am real mellow. I'm ok now. I'm happier then I've ever been in my whole life. I have no reason, and don't do anything to put myself back in jail. I know I have heart s**t going on, and may die tomorrow, and I'm happy just to be alive.
Quote from: RCMerchant on October 10, 2019, 09:06:41 PM
It's all good. I have Tiana, I own a house, I have a grandson, and I am real mellow. I'm ok now. I'm happier then I've ever been in my whole life. I have no reason, and don't do anything to put myself back in jail. I know I have heart s**t going on, and may die tomorrow, and I'm happy just to be alive.
I'm glad you're where you are in your life, enjoying good things. I remember how you've written here about some times in the past being hard to get through.
You're braver than me, because nine years ago when in the same month I was getting married I got news and thought I was going to die very soon, I didn't feel the peace you do, I threw aside everything I claimed to believe and cried out to God, something I would have sworn I'd never do. And in that I did find comfort and peace that changed me inside and changed how I felt about life. If you already have peace in life as you are, perhaps facing death, then I suppose that's courage of a sort I lacked.
It's all good. I have no right to cry. I'm happy to have what I have.
Or b***h about s**t. I know I complain about politics and s**t like that, but I could really care less about any of that s**t in the long run.