A Moody Thread

[tracy]

In not so great a mood today....the insurance man for that kid who hit us called yesterday and announced that they decided it was our own fault so they will not pay to fix our car. He hit us on the right as we were preparing to turn right going way the heck too fast.....BUT IT WAS OUR FAULT.

*sigh!*

[A_Dubya]

Currently? Depressed.

I feel like my current road in life is leading toward nothingness. I have been out of college for almost 5 years now. I've used my degree to some extent, but realized that I don't want to stay in the field I earned the honors in, because of a multitude of factors. The current job I'm at is just that. It's a job, not a career I'd want to spend years with. I get heat from people for stuff that isn't my fault, or I had no control over on almost a daily basis it seems. People seem to just take my kindness for weakness. Even my pay has been reduced because of circumstances beyond my control. I feel like I'm stuck in a trap. I swear, there are days when I leave in the morning, and I seriously think about just driving into a wall on the freeway.

I'm not sure how much longer I can tolerate this meaningless existence. At some point, I know I'm going to just lose it, or do something. I can't even say it's something I'd regret.  I feel in my heart that I am worth more than this, and that it's my fault for accepting this. I try to find other avenues to make a living and to improve my situation. Success with that is very low, so I can't find a way out. I don't know what to do. I have very bad thoughts in my head sometimes, and I have noticed that over the last 3 or 4 years, I have began drinking a lot more than I ever did in the past.

Just putting all of my thoughts into text form. Maybe it is a form of therapy for me.

[indianasmith]

You are a worthy individual, endowed with an immortal soul by a loving God.
You have the opportunity to go out and do something with your life.  It may be totally unrelated to your job,
but it could be the difference between life and death for those you reach out to.
This life is all you have. Don't squander it.  Pursue joy!  It is there, waiting to be found.
Tonight I saw with my daughter and we watched a supercell thunderstorm several miles away - one
of the most spectacular lightshows imaginable.  No deep conversation, no life changing drama.
Just watching God's fireworks with someone I love fiercely.  This earthly life is precious because
it is so brief.  You are much, much more than this light and passing affliction.
You matter!

[Rev. Powell]

Currently? Depressed.

I feel like my current road in life is leading toward nothingness. I have been out of college for almost 5 years now. I've used my degree to some extent, but realized that I don't want to stay in the field I earned the honors in, because of a multitude of factors. The current job I'm at is just that. It's a job, not a career I'd want to spend years with. I get heat from people for stuff that isn't my fault, or I had no control over on almost a daily basis it seems. People seem to just take my kindness for weakness. Even my pay has been reduced because of circumstances beyond my control. I feel like I'm stuck in a trap. I swear, there are days when I leave in the morning, and I seriously think about just driving into a wall on the freeway.

I'm not sure how much longer I can tolerate this meaningless existence. At some point, I know I'm going to just lose it, or do something. I can't even say it's something I'd regret.  I feel in my heart that I am worth more than this, and that it's my fault for accepting this. I try to find other avenues to make a living and to improve my situation. Success with that is very low, so I can't find a way out. I don't know what to do. I have very bad thoughts in my head sometimes, and I have noticed that over the last 3 or 4 years, I have began drinking a lot more than I ever did in the past.

Just putting all of my thoughts into text form. Maybe it is a form of therapy for me.

Get a prescription for antidepressants. The worst thing that will happen is they won't work and you'll feel the same way you do now. Best case scenario is they stabilize your mood and make life seem worth living again.

[major jay]

Currently? Depressed.

People seem to just take my kindness for weakness. Even my pay has been reduced because of circumstances beyond my control. I feel like I'm stuck in a trap. I swear, there are days when I leave in the morning, and I seriously think about just driving into a wall on the freeway.

I'm not sure how much longer I can tolerate this meaningless existence. At some point, I know I'm going to just lose it, or do something. I can't even say it's something I'd regret.  I feel in my heart that I am worth more than this, and that it's my fault for accepting this. I try to find other avenues to make a living and to improve my situation. Success with that is very low, so I can't find a way out. I don't know what to do. I have very bad thoughts in my head sometimes, and I have noticed that over the last 3 or 4 years, I have began drinking a lot more than I ever did in the past.

Just putting all of my thoughts into text form. Maybe it is a form of therapy for me.

It could be worse, Be happy you still have a job.

[JaseSF]

Seek help. Depression is an illness that needs to be treated in many individuals and you may well be just such a person.