What was your first taste of ALCOHOL?

[RCMerchant]

Gee...when I was about 5. Like Ash-it  was PBR. First drunk-at Thanksgiving at my Gramma and Granpa Bonarski's. They give my some home made wine. I had 3 shots. I got wasted. The rest is (a sometimes sad,sometimes fun)  history. But I have no illusios. Booze is the cause of most of my problems in life. I have been arrested over 20 times....(mostly minor stuff)-BUT-I was never sober when those occured. I don't use alchohol...I abuse it.

[Paquita]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

[ghouck]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

For starters, try some MD 20/20, it's usually on the bottom shelf of the cheap wine section.

[Rev. Powell]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

For starters, try some MD 20/20, it's usually on the bottom shelf of the cheap wine section.

Paquita, you're smart enough to recognize this on your own, but just in case you have a brain fart... do NOT follow ghouck's advice, it's a trap.  (You should never follow the advice of anyone who can't spell "ghoul" correctly). 

[Jim H]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Being female, you'll like Midori Sours.  I think there's a genetic component to women and Midori Sours. 




....I like them too, I'm ashamed to admit.   

[RCMerchant]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Don't do it,sweetie. The Devil comes in many shapes and colors too. It's the Highway to  Hell. 

[The Burgomaster]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Join us . . . join us . . . join us . . . join us . . .

[Jack]

The first time I remember was when I was helping my Grandpa with something on the farm, and afterwards he was having a beer with the neighbors.  He gave me a sip, I imagine it was probably Pabst Blue Ribbon.  I didn't really think it tasted too bad then, but years later when I started hanging out with guys who drank, it was all I could do to finish a whole can of that awful tasting stuff.  But I persevered, I overcame.  It's the American way 

[Psycho Circus]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Don't do it,sweetie. The Devil comes in many shapes and colors too. It's the Highway to  Hell. 

He sure tastes good though 

[RCMerchant]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Don't do it,sweetie. The Devil comes in many shapes and colors too. It's the Highway to  Hell. 

This-I know-  I'm  drunk  now.But  for  numerous  reasons-(have children) I loathe  my self. The party ended along time ago.  But  my addiction just dont get it. I dont drink to  party anymore.  I  drink  because  I  NEED it. Its horror. Horror  I  want to  be normal.  Im weak. Im damaged.  I think booze  is  the cure.. I  dont know  the cure. If I did-I  would do  it.  Sometimes-I  hate  myself.  I  am  not  a violent  drunk.  I  usta  be a happy drunk.  Now  Im a crying drunk.  Because  it  hurts.I  want to belong.  I want to be normal.  But I lived sso long as an outsider...no one wants to talk to me. They TRUST me-cuz  even being the town drunk-I  have always been honest-paid  my billss-was nice-but the "Otis"  the  freinddly  neighborhood  drunk. But I  want  more  for  my kidss-annd it's  putting aa stigma  on  them  at  school. Im  ashamed.. Imm  ssorry. Im...jeez...I  dunno...they love me...but I shoulda  done  better. I  dunno..  Jeez.

He sure tastes good though 

[RCMerchant]

I   sure posted  that  reply  wrong!  My  comment  after  Circus    (bless  hiss young heart!)is in the middle of  that  mess  I  posted a minute ago.  I'm an  ass.

[Cthulhu]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Don't do it,sweetie. The Devil comes in many shapes and colors too. It's the Highway to  Hell. 

This-I know-  I'm  drunk  now.But  for  numerous  reasons-(have children) I loathe  my self. The party ended along time ago.  But  my addiction just dont get it. I dont drink to  party anymore.  I  drink  because  I  NEED it. Its horror. Horror  I  want to  be normal.  Im weak. Im damaged.  I think booze  is  the cure.. I  dont know  the cure. If I did-I  would do  it.  Sometimes-I  hate  myself.  I  am  not  a violent  drunk.  I  usta  be a happy drunk.  Now  Im a crying drunk.  Because  it  hurts.I  want to belong.  I want to be normal.  But I lived sso long as an outsider...no one wants to talk to me. They TRUST me-cuz  even being the town drunk-I  have always been honest-paid  my billss-was nice-but the "Otis"  the  freinddly  neighborhood  drunk. But I  want  more  for  my kidss-annd it's  putting aa stigma  on  them  at  school. Im  ashamed.. Imm  ssorry. Im...jeez...I  dunno...they love me...but I shoulda  done  better. I  dunno..  Jeez.

He sure tastes good though 

Addiction (any kind of addiction) is a horrible thing. I don't want to be indiscreet, (excuse me, if I am) but have you considered going to a rehabilitation center?
I think you should be able to stop.
But whatever you do, don't go to AA. They are a cult.
Again, I'm sorry if I have commented on something that I have nothing to do with.

[RCMerchant]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Been to rehab twice. Worked for a little while. And I agree about AA. They ARE a cult.And no.Your comments are welcome. If I didn't want comments,I wouldnt have said anything about it.
Don't do it,sweetie. The Devil comes in many shapes and colors too. It's the Highway to  Hell. 

This-I know-  I'm  drunk  now.But  for  numerous  reasons-(have children) I loathe  my self. The party ended along time ago.  But  my addiction just dont get it. I dont drink to  party anymore.  I  drink  because  I  NEED it. Its horror. Horror  I  want to  be normal.  Im weak. Im damaged.  I think booze  is  the cure.. I  dont know  the cure. If I did-I  would do  it.  Sometimes-I  hate  myself.  I  am  not  a violent  drunk.  I  usta  be a happy drunk.  Now  Im a crying drunk.  Because  it  hurts.I  want to belong.  I want to be normal.  But I lived sso long as an outsider...no one wants to talk to me. They TRUST me-cuz  even being the town drunk-I  have always been honest-paid  my billss-was nice-but the "Otis"  the  freinddly  neighborhood  drunk. But I  want  more  for  my kidss-annd it's  putting aa stigma  on  them  at  school. Im  ashamed.. Imm  ssorry. Im...jeez...I  dunno...they love me...but I shoulda  done  better. I  dunno..  Jeez.

He sure tastes good though 

Addiction (any kind of addiction) is a horrible thing. I don't want to be indiscreet, (excuse me, if I am) but have you considered going to a rehabilitation center?
I think you should be able to stop.
But whatever you do, don't go to AA. They are a cult.
Again, I'm sorry if I have commented on something that I have nothing to do with.

[Cthulhu]

My dad would give me sips of beer I think starting when I was 4.  It tasted awful but I felt like a badass getting sips of beer.  I've never had more than a couple sips since and I've never been drunk.  I am extremely tempted by the world of boozing though - so many colors, so many flavors! So many fun shaped containers!!  It's like there's a crazy carnival of liqour out there begging me to come and play!!!!!

Been to rehab twice. Worked for a little while. And I agree about AA. They ARE a cult.And no.Your comments are welcome. If I didn't want comments,I wouldnt have said anything about it.
Don't do it,sweetie. The Devil comes in many shapes and colors too. It's the Highway to  Hell.  

This-I know-  I'm  drunk  now.But  for  numerous  reasons-(have children) I loathe  my self. The party ended along time ago.  But  my addiction just dont get it. I dont drink to  party anymore.  I  drink  because  I  NEED it. Its horror. Horror  I  want to  be normal.  Im weak. Im damaged.  I think booze  is  the cure.. I  dont know  the cure. If I did-I  would do  it.  Sometimes-I  hate  myself.  I  am  not  a violent  drunk.  I  usta  be a happy drunk.  Now  Im a crying drunk.  Because  it  hurts.I  want to belong.  I want to be normal.  But I lived sso long as an outsider...no one wants to talk to me. They TRUST me-cuz  even being the town drunk-I  have always been honest-paid  my billss-was nice-but the "Otis"  the  freinddly  neighborhood  drunk. But I  want  more  for  my kidss-annd it's  putting aa stigma  on  them  at  school. Im  ashamed.. Imm  ssorry. Im...jeez...I  dunno...they love me...but I shoulda  done  better. I  dunno..  Jeez.

He sure tastes good though  

Addiction (any kind of addiction) is a horrible thing. I don't want to be indiscreet, (excuse me, if I am) but have you considered going to a rehabilitation center?
I think you should be able to stop.
But whatever you do, don't go to AA. They are a cult.
Again, I'm sorry if I have commented on something that I have nothing to do with.

Maybe it's third time the charm. Don't give up. You should give it another chance.

[Rev. Powell]

Been to rehab twice. Worked for a little while. And I agree about AA. They ARE a cult.And no.Your comments are welcome. If I didn't want comments,I wouldnt have said anything about it.
Don't do it,sweetie. The Devil comes in many shapes and colors too. It's the Highway to  Hell. 

This-I know-  I'm  drunk  now.But  for  numerous  reasons-(have children) I loathe  my self. The party ended along time ago.  But  my addiction just dont get it. I dont drink to  party anymore.  I  drink  because  I  NEED it. Its horror. Horror  I  want to  be normal.  Im weak. Im damaged.  I think booze  is  the cure.. I  dont know  the cure. If I did-I  would do  it.  Sometimes-I  hate  myself.  I  am  not  a violent  drunk.  I  usta  be a happy drunk.  Now  Im a crying drunk.  Because  it  hurts.I  want to belong.  I want to be normal.  But I lived sso long as an outsider...no one wants to talk to me. They TRUST me-cuz  even being the town drunk-I  have always been honest-paid  my billss-was nice-but the "Otis"  the  freinddly  neighborhood  drunk. But I  want  more  for  my kidss-annd it's  putting aa stigma  on  them  at  school. Im  ashamed.. Imm  ssorry. Im...jeez...I  dunno...they love me...but I shoulda  done  better. I  dunno..  Jeez.

RC -- my friend -- you break all of our hearts with posts like this.  Particularly the part about self-loathing.  I can only imagine how you suffer from the addiction itself; beating yourself up on top of it is just too much to bear. 

I won't pretend to have advice for you on how to cope with this, but if you could see yourself as we see you, you wouldn't be filled with self-hatred.  You have no illusions, and your brutal honesty, passion for movies, and good heart shines through in all of your posts.  My heart goes out to you, as I'm sure everyone's does.  Take it easy on yourself.