I'm trying not to be heartbroken.....

[Killer Bees]

So sorry to hear that!  I know I'm coming in a little late, but I hope things get better for you!  I think you did the right thing and there's a lot of good advice here!  I don't know if you thought of it, but the way it sounds to me, it seems like maybe you're a little too good to be true for him.   I know you had previously mentioned that when you met him initially, there were no long term intentions, but you guys kind of squashed that as the relationship grew.  Maybe the situation with his ex makes it impossible (or seemingly impossible) for him to have a long-term relationship with someone else.   I hope that doesn't make you feel worse!  I still have hope for you!  You seem like a great catch and no matter what he does, he can't make you stop caring.  I do think he should at least give you an explanation.

You've got friends here!  We all like you!  And these guys are always good for a laugh when you need it!

Thanks Paquita for your lovely kind words 

He texted me on Sunday and asked to come over last night.  He came after work and we were both quite wary initially.  I was so happy to see him I jumped on him and kissed him and he relaxed.  We chatted like old friends and in one of the silences I asked him if he still loved me and he said "yes I do."  Then I asked him if he wanted us and he said "I do want that".  After that, everything was good.  We went to bed a couple of hours later and made love which we hadn't done for 2 weeks (mainly because he's always exhausted and stressed) and it was wonderful

As we were falling asleep, I said, "Sean, I was really heartbroken when you dumped me."  He said, "I know honey."  And I said, "please don't ever hurt me like that again."  And he said "I won't.  I love you.  We'll talk more on Thursday."  Then I fell asleep happy.  We are seeing each other on Thursday and we'll nut it all out then.

So, cause for celebration after all.  He needs to sort his living situation out with his ex and he knows it.  It's not a living situation either of them really want but it's good for the kids and above everything they love their kids and want a stable life for them.  But Sean wants us to live together and he knows I won't do it while she's in the house.

But that's talk for much later down the track.  My lease here in my apartment is still valid until June, so there won't be any movement on my part until at least then.

When we have our heart-to-heart on Thursday, I'll post a separate entry to let everyone know what happened.

[Trevor]

Right: that post has just made me 

Hope it all works out for you, KB. 

In the meantime, please think of me because I'm about to watch the horror that is The Demon 

[Killer Bees]

Right: that post has just made me 

Hope it all works out for you, KB. 

In the meantime, please think of me because I'm about to watch the horror that is The Demon 

I haven't seen that one.  I'll have to check it out.  Remember, Trevor, there is absolutely no shame in screaming like a little girl and hiding under the sofa    

[Trevor]

I haven't seen that one.  I'll have to check it out.  Remember, Trevor, there is absolutely no shame in screaming like a little girl and hiding under the sofa    

The problem I have with The Demon [says he, getting up from under his desk, gibbering in fear   ] is that the producer/writer/director, Percival Rubens was a good friend of mine and the DP on the film, Vincent G Cox ASC is a mentor to me. I cannot handle the fact that those two made such a horrible film.  

We have the uncut, uncensored 35mm print in the film archives, btw: lots more gore, lots more nekkid Jennifer Holmes, lots more bare bums in saggy panties    and lots more shots of the sea. 

[Killer Bees]

I haven't seen that one.  I'll have to check it out.  Remember, Trevor, there is absolutely no shame in screaming like a little girl and hiding under the sofa    

The problem I have with The Demon [says he, getting up from under his desk, gibbering in fear  ] is that the producer/writer/director, Percival Rubens was a good friend of mine and the DP on the film, Vincent G Cox ASC is a mentor to me. I cannot handle the fact that those two made such a horrible film. 

I see.  I was under the impression it was a scary film, not a horrible one.  Even good people can make lousy films sometimes.

[Trevor]

I see.  I was under the impression it was a scary film, not a horrible one.  Even good people can make lousy films sometimes.

I have the bare bums, sorry, can't get that image out of my mind  bare-bones DVD on my desk: the tagline says THE SCREAMS YOU HEAR MAY BE YOUR OWN. Quite correct: those are the screams I utter when the DVD becomes a frisbee. 

[Killer Bees]

I see.  I was under the impression it was a scary film, not a horrible one.  Even good people can make lousy films sometimes.

I have the bare bums, sorry, can't get that image out of my mind  bare-bones DVD on my desk: the tagline says THE SCREAMS YOU HEAR MAY BE YOUR OWN. Quite correct: those are the screams I utter when the DVD becomes a frisbee. 

See?  All is not lost.  The DVD is actually a useful object after all   

[Cthulhu]

So sorry to hear that!  I know I'm coming in a little late, but I hope things get better for you!  I think you did the right thing and there's a lot of good advice here!  I don't know if you thought of it, but the way it sounds to me, it seems like maybe you're a little too good to be true for him.   I know you had previously mentioned that when you met him initially, there were no long term intentions, but you guys kind of squashed that as the relationship grew.  Maybe the situation with his ex makes it impossible (or seemingly impossible) for him to have a long-term relationship with someone else.   I hope that doesn't make you feel worse!  I still have hope for you!  You seem like a great catch and no matter what he does, he can't make you stop caring.  I do think he should at least give you an explanation.

You've got friends here!  We all like you!  And these guys are always good for a laugh when you need it!

Thanks Paquita for your lovely kind words 

He texted me on Sunday and asked to come over last night.  He came after work and we were both quite wary initially.  I was so happy to see him I jumped on him and kissed him and he relaxed.  We chatted like old friends and in one of the silences I asked him if he still loved me and he said "yes I do."  Then I asked him if he wanted us and he said "I do want that".  After that, everything was good.  We went to bed a couple of hours later and made love which we hadn't done for 2 weeks (mainly because he's always exhausted and stressed) and it was wonderful

As we were falling asleep, I said, "Sean, I was really heartbroken when you dumped me."  He said, "I know honey."  And I said, "please don't ever hurt me like that again."  And he said "I won't.  I love you.  We'll talk more on Thursday."  Then I fell asleep happy.  We are seeing each other on Thursday and we'll nut it all out then.

So, cause for celebration after all.  He needs to sort his living situation out with his ex and he knows it.  It's not a living situation either of them really want but it's good for the kids and above everything they love their kids and want a stable life for them.  But Sean wants us to live together and he knows I won't do it while she's in the house.

But that's talk for much later down the track.  My lease here in my apartment is still valid until June, so there won't be any movement on my part until at least then.

When we have our heart-to-heart on Thursday, I'll post a separate entry to let everyone know what happened.

You see? I told you everything would work out fine!
I'm so glad that this problem was solved.

[Mike Justice]

We have the uncut, uncensored 35mm print in the film archives, btw: lots more gore, lots more nekkid Jennifer Holmes, lots more bare bums in saggy panties    and lots more shots of the sea. 

Is the uncut, uncensored one basically just like the regular one that's been available on American video forever, or is there anything new and interesting about it?