What have you been listening to?

[HappyGilmore]

Chuck Berry
Chuck Berry - Johnny B. Goode (Live 1958)
Roll Over Beethoven - Chuck Berry LIVE

[HappyGilmore]

I been really thinking of killing my self.
I hate this world.


Im not joking-I really am tired.

Don't talk like that, sir.  I've talked like that before.  My cousin didn't.  And he did kill himself.  I've not been the same since.  Don't do that to your loved ones.  It won't be the same for them or here.   

My little brorther killed his self. If
If he had stayed at my house-he would be alive.Its my fault!

I dont know-I cant say sorry cause he is dead. I I I dont know what to do.
I hate myself. I feel like I killed my brother.

It hurts-and I vent.I feel like its my fault.He was living in my house-but he started meth again-so I kicked him out-and he killed hisself.

It's not your fault.  Don't hate yourself.  Doesn't get you anywhere.  But...I understand it hurting.  There's a void. 

[HappyGilmore]

Social Distortion
Social Distortion - Ball and Chain
Social Distortion - Story of My Life

[Rev. Powell]

I been really thinking of killing my self.
I hate this world.


Im not joking-I really am tired.

Don't talk like that, sir.  I've talked like that before.  My cousin didn't.  And he did kill himself.  I've not been the same since.  Don't do that to your loved ones.  It won't be the same for them or here.   

My little brorther killed his self. If
If he had stayed at my house-he would be alive.Its my fault!

I dont know-I cant say sorry cause he is dead. I I I dont know what to do.
I hate myself. I feel like I killed my brother.

It hurts-and I vent.I feel like its my fault.He was living in my house-but he started meth again-so I kicked him out-and he killed hisself.

It's not your fault.  Don't hate yourself.  Doesn't get you anywhere.  But...I understand it hurting.  There's a void. 

What Happy said. Not your fault. No guarantee he would still be alive today if you'd done anything differently. Maybe he didn't kill himself earlier than he did because you were nice to him. No way of knowing. Everyone is responsible for themselves.

[RCMerchant]

I seen the Dead Boys live.
and Suicidal Tendecies,the Melvins,White Zombie,Black Flag,Aerosmith,Foghat,Alice Cooper,Head East,Joan Jett,Ted Nugent,Kiss,the Outlaws,the Allman Brothers...I think more-I dont remember so good.

http://youtu.be/ohZnOaetFvY

[HappyGilmore]

I seen the Dead Boys live.
and Suicidal Tendecies,the Melvins,White Zombie,Black Flag,Aerosmith,Foghat,Alice Cooper,Head East,Joan Jett,Ted Nugent,Kiss,the Outlaws,the Allman Brothers...I think more-I dont remember so good.

http://youtu.be/ohZnOaetFvY

I love Joan Jett and Zombie

[Newt]

I been really thinking of killing my self.
I hate this world.


Im not joking-I really am tired.

Don't talk like that, sir.  I've talked like that before.  My cousin didn't.  And he did kill himself.  I've not been the same since.  Don't do that to your loved ones.  It won't be the same for them or here.  

My little brorther killed his self. If
If he had stayed at my house-he would be alive.Its my fault!

I dont know-I cant say sorry cause he is dead. I I I dont know what to do.
I hate myself. I feel like I killed my brother.

It hurts-and I vent.I feel like its my fault.He was living in my house-but he started meth again-so I kicked him out-and he killed hisself.

My little brother killed himself.

If I had talked to him more he would be alive.
My entire family feels that way: if we had talked to him more, been closer, we would have known what he was going through.  Seen it coming.  Done something.

It's our fault.

It hurts.
He had a promising career, a wife, children, many talents, a beautiful house he renovated with his own hands, a dog he adored...everyone loved him and we did not see his pain.

It killed my Dad.

We should have been closer.  He was too alone and that is our fault: we did not try hard enough to be there for him.


Yes there is a void.  There will always be a void.  There is guilt.  But listen to the Rev: each of us is responsible for ourselves.  We cannot control other people.  That's arrogant.  People make their own choices for their own reasons.  We cannot know what those reasons were.  All we can do is to deal with where we are now.

[RCMerchant]

Im very sorry,Newt..nah I aint gonna killmyself-I just wish I was dead sometimes...but I got my kids,my grandson,and Tiana who I love dearly.

[VenomX73]

Full Machinarium OST

Sounds great with the logitech z623 bass speaker.

[Rev. Powell]

I been really thinking of killing my self.
I hate this world.


Im not joking-I really am tired.

Don't talk like that, sir.  I've talked like that before.  My cousin didn't.  And he did kill himself.  I've not been the same since.  Don't do that to your loved ones.  It won't be the same for them or here.  

My little brorther killed his self. If
If he had stayed at my house-he would be alive.Its my fault!

I dont know-I cant say sorry cause he is dead. I I I dont know what to do.
I hate myself. I feel like I killed my brother.

It hurts-and I vent.I feel like its my fault.He was living in my house-but he started meth again-so I kicked him out-and he killed hisself.

My little brother killed himself.

If I had talked to him more he would be alive.
My entire family feels that way: if we had talked to him more, been closer, we would have known what he was going through.  Seen it coming.  Done something.

It's our fault.

It hurts.
He had a promising career, a wife, children, many talents, a beautiful house he renovated with his own hands, a dog he adored...everyone loved him and we did not see his pain.

It killed my Dad.

We should have been closer.  He was too alone and that is our fault: we did not try hard enough to be there for him.


Yes there is a void.  There will always be a void.  There is guilt.  But listen to the Rev: each of us is responsible for ourselves.  We cannot control other people.  That's arrogant.  People make their own choices for their own reasons.  We cannot know what those reasons were.  All we can do is to deal with where we are now.

Touching story, Newt, but---it's not your fault or your family's fault. I look at it from the other end. I was never truly suicidal, but when I was going through major depression, I might have gotten to that point if I had not gotten help soon. If I had killed myself, it would have been laughable to think that it was someone else's fault for not reaching out to me. I don't believe that's the way it works.

On the other hand knowing that your loved ones will probably feel that way---irrational though it may be---is a big disincentive to suicide.

I had a friend recently kill himself and I know it was nobody's fault. It was just that he was in acute emotional pain at that moment and couldn't take it anymore. He was that way all his life; people reached out to him, but love is not always powerful enough.

[Allhallowsday]

...
Touching story, Newt, but---it's not your fault or your family's fault. I look at it from the other end. I was never truly suicidal, but when I was going through major depression, I might have gotten to that point if I had not gotten help soon. If I had killed myself, it would have been laughable to think that it was someone else's fault for not reaching out to me. I don't believe that's the way it works.

On the other hand knowing that your loved ones will probably feel that way---irrational though it may be---is a big disincentive to suicide.

I had a friend recently kill himself and I know it was nobody's fault. It was just that he was in acute emotional pain at that moment and couldn't take it anymore. He was that way all his life; people reached out to him, but love is not always powerful enough.

Well said. 
I have guilt and regret about people I love.  Love doesn't stop though lives might.  I tried to be there for my brother, was hard on him the last months of his life because I saw he was not helping but killing himself.  My brother drank himself to death, and had pain from his Ankylosing spondylitis that I believe few could even imagine.  Yet, his final months of suffering, and his wife's and my own suffering, made me reach the conclusion that I wanted all the pain for all of us to end.  It was terrible when it happened, but a relief for those left behind.  Quick death, which came to his wife, my beloved, was easiest for her if it must happen, and much worse for those of us left behind.  Life is beautiful and life is loss. 
I often become despondent, but I like to think that all of the loss that life gives has made me less angry, more patient.  Maybe I'll get it perfect some day.  I hope to.  My own personal philosophy is "No Pressure".  And love. 

[HappyGilmore]

Breaking Benjamin
Breaking Benjamin - The Diary of Jane
Breaking Benjamin - So Cold
"Sooner Or Later" -- Breaking Benjamin

[Allhallowsday]

  




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tEgzGnzojc

[Rev. Powell]

[Allhallowsday]

My favorite:  THE STOOGES Fun House  
 

Greatest ROCK song ever written... maybe...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xDo2w1MCDM