Who's lonsome?

[Doggett]

I've always been alone.
The only people I talk to is you lot (Its why it sucks when I'm offline). Sometimes I get lonely but I think thats true of everyone.

When I think of what it would be like to have lots of people and the stress of making sure I can give them all the attention they need, I think it's better for me to be alone. I only want a very few people in my life. Sometimes I even feel guilty here when I don't give a regular enough attention.

Yes, I get lonely. Sometimes horribly so. But I think that I'm good the way I am.

[RCMerchant]

Ok. This is f**ked up. I just caught myself talking into the bathroom mirror. And I was answering myself. I have the radio on. Loud. I was looking out the window. No one is there. I went into the bathromm to see if I look ok. For who? I dont know.  And I look at myself and start talking. "Yer ok,Ronny-this song sucks,huh? Change the station-" that kinda thing. Im losing it.

[Allhallowsday]

Ok. This is f**ked up. I just caught myself talking into the bathroom mirror. And I was answering myself. I have the radio on. Loud. I was looking out the window. No one is there. I went into the bathromm to see if I look ok. For who? I dont know.  And I look at myself and start talking. "Yer ok,Ronny-this song sucks,huh? Change the station-" that kinda thing. Im losing it.

There's nothing wrong with that.  'Specially since yer drinking.  You know a suck-ass song when you hear one, eh? 

[Umaril The Unfeathered]

I've always been alone.
The only people I talk to is you lot (Its why it sucks when I'm offline). Sometimes I get lonely but I think thats true of everyone.

When I think of what it would be like to have lots of people and the stress of making sure I can give them all the attention they need, I think it's better for me to be alone. I only want a very few people in my life. Sometimes I even feel guilty here when I don't give a regular enough attention.

Yes, I get lonely. Sometimes horribly so. But I think that I'm good the way I am.

Having lots of people around is OK if you know how to make your own space for yourself which we all need.  But, to be fair, it IS easy to forget about yourself and your own needs when you're trying to be friend and mentor to those around you, so it does happen and there's no shame in it.

Sadly, sometimes it backfires on you, as was my experience.   

Not that what happened was my fault, (or that it failed all the time) but there are some who feel that you should do favors for them all the time, and constantly give them attention, who turn on you in anger the minute you set your limits with them.

That's when you find out who your real friends are. 

You have to steel yourself and be comfortable with setting limits, AND saying no(and for the reaction it may bring out in those who see it differently.) 

So while having lots of people may solve your loneliness problem, it's also a very stressful lesson in social micro management.

[Psycho Circus]

Ok. This is f**ked up. I just caught myself talking into the bathroom mirror. And I was answering myself. I have the radio on. Loud. I was looking out the window. No one is there. I went into the bathromm to see if I look ok. For who? I dont know.  And I look at myself and start talking. "Yer ok,Ronny-this song sucks,huh? Change the station-" that kinda thing. Im losing it.

RC, I do that every day! I'm always messing around with my hair and seeing if I look okay, when no-one is coming round and I'm not even going out anywhere! I guess it's just the fact that I want to look good to myself, hoping that I can feel a bit better rather than all the self loathing I feel. Seeing as I talk to myself all the time, looking in the mirror is like having a proper conversation, you can make eye contact!