Seems I've been lied to all along

[Trevor]

Thank you all and much love.

I'm sitting here - just gone 10 pm - and I am tired, depressed and very lonely. I don't know what I am going to do to help Mom now.

Normally I would have a plan as I did 12 years ago when Dad passed: I have helped Mom ever since then with paying her bills for her monthly, keeping her on my medical aid and giving her a yearly lump sum of money when I get my bonus check. This carried on even when she moved away and remarried. After her second hubbie died, I continued with this.

Sorry Mom: I don't know what to do anymore: the only thing which I can do which can ensure you won't have any financial worries for the rest of your life involves me committing a mortal sin and that I can't do.

Sorry, can't cope. 

[Alex]

Things must feel like they are all in a whirlwind for you right now. Don't try and fix everything all at once, just deal with the day to day stuff until you feel you have the time and space to work out the more long term s**t.

Wish I could be more help.

[Newt]

Trevor, as a mom I can tell you my biggest concern would be that my family members will be okay when I cannot be there for them.   In my heart I know the best you can do for your Mom right now is to keep loving her and to try to hold it together so she does not have to worry about you.  I know that will be difficult.  Lean on your cousins.  Stay in touch as often as you can, as I am sure you already are doing.  And remember you are never alone.

[Trevor]

Going to see the doctor tomorrow morning: I can't sleep and I can't relax. Sorry if I'm whining: I genuinely have no one to talk to here around me.

[Newt]

Going to see the doctor tomorrow morning: I can't sleep and I can't relax. Sorry if I'm whining: I genuinely have no one to talk to here around me.

It's not whining.  You are expressing your genuine distress.  You can do that here.  Wish we could do more to help.

[Trevor]

Going to see the doctor tomorrow morning: I can't sleep and I can't relax. Sorry if I'm whining: I genuinely have no one to talk to here around me.

It's not whining.  You are expressing your genuine distress.  You can do that here.  Wish we could do more to help.

I decided against going to see my doctor this morning as I was going to ask her for sleeping meds: I am afraid in my current state that I will take all of them. So no doc visit and I must battle on.

[indianasmith]

That's probably a wise decision.
Have you tried taking melatonin?  It's a harmless supplement, but it does help your body fall asleep if you take it at bedtime.

[Trevor]

That's probably a wise decision.
Have you tried taking melatonin?  It's a harmless supplement, but it does help your body fall asleep if you take it at bedtime.

Never tried that but my work mentor recommended some calming tablets which are herbal: I can't get addicted as I did in 2011.

OK now: Mom is being released at the end of the week. That is the good news.

The bad news is that the stroke debilitated her to the point that she is in a wheelchair and will need constant care for a long time.

[Leah]

Sorry to hear that Trevor

[RCMerchant]

You can do it. Your a fighter.

[zombie no.one]

sorry Trev, must be awful. keep going please   

[Trevor]

Mom is going to a step down facility for rehab on Monday so there is some hope: when the hospital called me on 16th July, they said there wasn't any.

[chefzombie]

she's going to surprise a LOT of people with her progress, my brother. you'll see. 

[javakoala]

Hang in there, Brother Trevor.

[Trevor]

Hang in there, Brother Trevor.

Welcome back: wow. 

Mom is doing better thanks: docs told me almost three weeks ago there was no hope but she is getting better.