I'm Drunk

[Javakoala]

I hate that point of being being so drunk that you know that if you have so much as one more drink, you WILL vomit, so you are waiting for that moment to pass.

Blah, blah, blah.

[Joe the Destroyer]

I hate that point of being being so drunk that you know that if you have so much as one more drink, you WILL vomit, so you are waiting for that moment to pass.

Blah, blah, blah.

Same here.  I revisited that feeling last night. 

[HappyGilmore]

I did good last night.  Only had 5 or 6 beers and called it a night.  Was tipsy, but not staggeringly drunk.  Which is good for me, cause I used to just go and go, not just doing alcohol, but mixing alcohol and drugs. 

Not anymore.  I very rarely drink anymore.  I've been trying not to.  Just doesn't appeal to me anymore.

[Psycho Circus]

I've been sober now for 12 days. Wow, must be some kind of record... 

[Sister Grace]

Honestly- i'm not so much drunk as just plain fu%^ed up. Lately, my parents have been forcing me to go to therapy (long story i'd rather not share) and i've noticed that the suit behind the desk p**ses me off then i and get thrashed. I don't need some pencil pusher to tell me things I already know. He actually called me a predator  today and a sociopath for not feeling guilty. I do feel guilty sometimes, but not actually for the things i do but rather for my absence of remorse. In short, i feel guilty for not feeling guilty. I hate this guy. I think he's repressed.

Anyways, its like a pattern- therapy then little grey pills on the way home. I like the lush fall of morphine. It's like a boyfriend you don't have to love. That statement my shock some; but its true.

[Javakoala]

Okay, time for me to chime in again.  I'm drinking, in a casual fashion, so I can get through the next film I intend to review. So into my drinking that I called a casual friend to ask about a possible scar from small pox because I see the actor in the film has that distinctive scar on his arm.  I don't notice women sporting that scar much, but I must boost my awareness of this.

Sister Grace, I'm not shocked by your comments.  I find I'm just THIS side of that line. There are times that I sense it would take so little for me to cease to acknowledge the lack of remorse for my thoughts and/or actions. That is the thin thread I hold onto. I pity those who know me if I should let go of that. Many happy thoughts in your direction, for whatever help they may provide.

[voltron]

I'm having a few at 12 o'clock noon. It's just realy hard dealing with the loss of my brother, so this  is how i deal with it. Yesterday I smoke 2 grams of weed in a short period of time. Drinking and smoking doesn't sole any problems, but it does make te time go by faster. 

[Rev. Powell]

Wow, Grace, heavy stuff there.

Honestly- i'm not so much drunk as just plain fu%^ed up. Lately, my parents have been forcing me to go to therapy (long story i'd rather not share) and i've noticed that the suit behind the desk p**ses me off then i and get thrashed. I don't need some pencil pusher to tell me things I already know. He actually called me a predator  today and a sociopath for not feeling guilty. I do feel guilty sometimes, but not actually for the things i do but rather for my absence of remorse. In short, i feel guilty for not feeling guilty. I hate this guy. I think he's repressed.

Maybe you should try a different therapist.  If you're constantly mad at the guy he may not be able to help you.  It's possible, of course, that he's deliberately making you angry.  Telling you things you "already know" but dislike about yourself could be a way to force you to face them when the natural human tendency is to avoid them.  He may be hoping to make you mad at yourself in order to inspire you to change.  Just a possibility; another one is that he's a bad therapist, or just doesn't click with you for whatever reason.  I'm pretty skeptical about the idea of therapy anyway.  It helps some people, doesn't have any effect on others.

Hey, maybe you even do have sociopathic tendencies.  So what?  It's a diagnosis, not a death sentence.  It's a problem if it gets in the way of your happiness, but I suspect that there are ways you can consciously adjust your behavior to compensate for it.  We ALL, without exception, have problems and personality flaws.  I have a powerful tendency towards paralyzing anxiety and depression.  Over the years I've discovered ways and tricks to cope with it.    

I like the lush fall of morphine. It's like a boyfriend you don't have to love.  

Those are almost certainly the most frighteningly poetic two sentences anyone's ever written on these boards.  

[Psycho Circus]

Therapists are evil and self obsessed. They don't want you to get better, because they can get more money the longer you feel screwed up. I've seen tons over the years, and I eventually walked out on every one of them. I find it's best to look inside yourself and work things out on your own. Just make sure you have someone nearby who's a damn good listener! 

[Mr. DS]

Went out after work with a few people.  I had a few beers.  I feel pretty good but I'm not officially drunk.  I think I need to drink more.  It makes me happy.  However, if someone says the wrong thing it awakes the sleeping demon in me and I unleash upon them.  So perhaps I should just drink alone.  Btw, those wings weren't that good.  Spicy yes, texture wise just ok.  Not worth the ten bucks. 

[Javakoala]

I'm becoming a too frequent visitor to this board.  I tend to drink for the fun of it.  When I start feeling angry, I know I'm tapping into areas that I shouldn't.  Oddly enough, when I drink, I tend to laugh at things a lot. Ignorance is bliss.  When I am cold sober, the anger takes hold, when I dwell there.  But my poor old body can't take being drunk all the time.  It starts killing me after more than a week; I can't feel my body eating itself.

Oooh, morbid mood there, eh?

Time for bed.  Work and then I'm fixing a big stew-like mess to eat and I can drink until I go to sleep.  Sadly, I have to buy more whiskey on the way home, walking, in minus 5 degree temps. Yet, I somehow manage to sweat through my shirts.  So, ladies, need a full-body bed-warmer? I swear I won't sweat on you, unless I have good reason. And we'll end this post before I say anything stupider than that.

Sleep well all.

[Javakoala]

Holy crap.  Am I the only poster here, now?

Just watched an awful 70's frat film, and, well, the booze is not hitting hard enough. I'm buzzed

Off to annoy folks on PS Home, their PS3 social network. Then some Sacred 2, and another movie. The snow is so thick around here, I can't ride my bike to see my girlfriend at her Sunday-only job at McDonalds. It saddens me not only because I don't get to see her lovely face and talk to her, but they put the breakfast burritos on the Dollar Menu recently and that is what I buy.  I could load up.

Peace and happy faces to everyone.

[Rev. Powell]

I'm a little buzzed, which is rare.  Not that I don't drink, I'm just usually not at the computer when I do.

[Paquita]

I just sipped a strawberry wine cooler!! IM OUT OF CONTROLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!

they put the breakfast burritos on the Dollar Menu

HELL YEAH!!!  I love the breakfast burritos! but i pick all the sausages and peppers out.. which is probably gross to you.  Ask your lady-love when they're going to start serving breakfast all day.

[Jack]

HELL YEAH!!!  I love the breakfast burritos! but i pick all the sausages and peppers out..

You take the sausage and peppers out?  OH...that is just SOOOOOO wrong!     The only modification that should be made to the breakfast burrito is to add a packet of hot sauce.