Anthony Bourdain murdering himself absolutely enraged me. I wanted to go kick his corpse and yell at him. Such a stupid loss that will always hurt me.
I mean, mental illness sucks. Just speaking as one who's dealt with bipolar disorder and anxiety for the majority of my 35 years on this planet.
I get being mad at the guy, grieving. But it's a horrible place to be in, in that space between our ears.
I think I can relate to the anger one might feel; I was an admirer and disappointed by
ANTHONY BOURDAIN, but perhaps more shocked. Sheet, the guy loved Punk Rock! How was this possible?
I can't speak for him personally.
Me, I grew up a fan of punk rock, horror films, and comic books. I was popular kid who was also 'distant.' School counselor said he noticed signs of 'manic depression' and anxiety. Accurate. Instead of seeking help then, my 20's featured alcoholism, drug addiction, sex addiction and a variety of jobs and stuff. Much like, apparently, Bourdain. I self-medicated until I had a legit breakdown and sought help and 2 certified doctors gave me medication.
Shockingly survived a few suicide attempts myself.
He had access to money and help I could only dream of, but I understand the side of it where you don't want to face that side of yourself or admit, yes, you need help.
I also was saddened by Robin Williams death. While not a huge fan of his, I got the 'make everyone else laugh when that's what you really need to do" aspect of his life.